Looking for my own apt again. Preferably in the stc perimeter (not a dorm) I should find one in a week or too, I suppose.


I have a lot to say.

I'm so: awake
Listen: movies.

oh yeah, so completely disregard the previous entry. thanks.


btw, as of today Im currently without a phone. the use and abuse it took was too much. so it died on me, go figure.

I'll be without one til tomorrow I suppose, so if you want to get a hold of me, hit me up telepathically. or just simply show up at my apt, to those who know where I sleep.

I'm so: flirty
Listen: my brain spazzing

so yeah, if I haven't... we have purchased a motherfucking wii!


it is sort of addicting, thankfully I work during the day so I only have night time and days off to enjoy it, but then again I'd rather play with lily. everything's been a little bit eh, I can't explain it. I won't explain it. funny how beautiful a facade can look. I've always been really good at hiding my emotions. besides fuck me, I have more important things and people to worry about than being selfish.

so yeah I only have an hour to make my lunch, then I'm off to work at 4.
school and work are kicking my ass into the dirt, over and over and over... I feel like kicking one to the curb.
but I can do this. I think.


zombie fuck youism. lots of it, compliments of school, work, and just life.
fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you school and work.

Current Location: in my head
I'm so: tired
Listen: t.i and jt, girl

Two of many cute things I've purchased recently!


His name is Wolfgang! Watch out, Tilly. (I know I'm a cat lady, but I manage well dont trip)


And my new super cute Pandapple nano cover.



Sunday cleaning is really an outlet for stress. Besides afterwards I feel completely better and the apartment smells so fucking good. I hope it stays this way for awhile, I just gotta keep it consecutive.

We've been decorating more and more to our apt with every paycheck.
The only things left are:
+ curtains for the living room and bedroom.
+ bamboo shades
+ more appropriate welcome mat
+ new living room television
+ chinese divider to seperate the living room from the dining room
+ costers
+ more glade's hawaiian breeze plug-ins (we already have 2 and I recommend that shit to everyone and anyone!)

the wants and not needs are:
~ couch covers
~ wall shelves
~ painting for the top of the kitchen pantry door
~ and more decorative art/figurines

Whoa... but I mean come on what the fuck.
I'm going to be living in here for a year!

Current Location: living room
I'm so: amused
Listen: wolfgang meowing

wearing cute dresses to work are fun.

tiny flying player pianos carried aloft on the breeze.
as evening falls, they hang beneath the eaves.
I hear their tinkling cacophony,
til one by one, they sleep.
oh, if only I could sleep...

I'm so: awake, but not awake

6 months in 3 days.
whoa

I'm so: jubilant
Listen: the doors

All A's in my classes. Lily's healthy, minus the little cold she has due to the weather. Our apartment is facing north so we get the full brunt of the cold front. I need to get her a humidifier, or something.

I also think, no matter how new it is, that our apartment is downright haunted. I hear noises through the baby monitor at night... it might be just white noise, but I'm very paranoid. Especially since I've been watching that show The Haunting on the discovery channel. So pretty much I think every place is haunted if it's old, or I hear noises. I'm a scaredy cat D:

Oh! I also found a volkswagen jetta for sale, and I'm really really wanting it. Although I have to wait to show Adrian a picture of it so I can get good judgment from someone who loves volkswagens just as much as I do! It might be just the right first car for me... I hope.

I've got to stop procrastinating... back to hw!
hastaaa!

my hair is so long it almost goes passed my breasts.
I'm excited to be able to not wear a shirt and still hide 'em
j/k....sorta.

I'm so: tired

If your parents ever tell you that you've scared them half to death, and you've taken it with a grain of salt, think about it harder please.


Last night when we were finishing up moving in to the new apartment, Lily's temperature went up to 101. I knew earlier on in the day I had a headache and the sniffles, but I was taking care of her while Alex was at school. So instantly, I figured I was the one that got her sick. As if I wasn't shitting bricks enough I had the guilt add on to it.

I have never tripped out so bad in my whole entire life.


We gave her baby tylenol and came to my parent's house and fortunately her fever started reducing to her normal temperature of 97.2 I was so relieved, but then vomitted because of how upset I've been. Or maybe it was because I'm sick. Either way I had never been so scared or cried so hard. Yes I cried, which is something that I never ever do unless it really hits close to home. This hit right on the bull's eye.

My little Lily.
My little Achilles heel.
I'll love you always.
Time is nothing.

I'm so: sick

Finding an apartment as harder than I expected it to be... although I'm kind of rusty at it since the last time I went apartment shopping it didn't take much til we found one and moved in. I was rushed then, but I'm in no rush now. Does anyone have suggestions??


Preferably in edinburg.
Thanks!
<3

I'm so: amused